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One of those stories where everything that could be said contains spoilers.
Train wreck. No other way to describe my feelings. After the first few paragraphs I knew I wasn't going to like the end.
I think I need the sequel to decide if I like it. Without it it's a good read, but I don't 'see' it, mainly because it requires a whole house to invest a lot of time, Snape to invest a lot of time, everyone being a very good actor or Harry to very easy to deceive (maybe I could believe this), but most importantly everyone to hate Harry enough to want him not only humiliated but broken. The whole 'Let him beg for Snape to fuck him in front of everyone' could have been achieved with a lot less effort and would this would fit better with my conception of the hatred between Draco/every Slytherin and Harry (Hate, yes - but not the sort of hate that wastes such a lot of time on the other). Why I have problems with Snape in this story is a much to convoluted line of thought for me to try to write down. (In short: Evil? Ok. Good? Ok. Self serving? Ok. Uncaring? Ok. Actor? Ok. Childish? Ok But this is everything and nothing and there is no way for me to put a neat label on him. I *need* this. Give me the world in black, white or gray, give me a *reason*, irrational, wrong, nothing I could ever understand, I don't care, just some sort of reason).
But such a nice long story.
It's snowing.
This would be nice if I could stay in my flat for the rest of the day.
It would be tolerable if I didn't insist on going everywhere by bike.
Things being as they are, the only thing I've got to say is: Blergh.
I wonder how some people can be as stupid as they are:
'What's a prepuce?' Ok, never mind that you should know that at least since the anatomy exams two years ago, I sometimes have weird blackouts concerning correct terms too. But when I tell you 'Foreskin' could you please show some sign (however false) of recognition and not follow up with the even more stupid 'It looks different in men'. You don't say? Could this be because you're looking at a stallion? And his prepuce doesn't look very different from a lot of the other animals we've looked at in the last two years?
Otherwise the lesson was interesting - and fun. As were looks on the faces of the few men in our class when we took a biopsy of the broccoli-like thing growing on the glans or were talking about penis-amputations.
I have to study, the rings under my eyes have invited some wrinkles to move in, my mind is still busy arguing with itself about ethics and animal tests, and I still have to catch up on 48 hours of work.Just lying down and sleeping until next year looks like a good idea at the moment.
You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame, they burn with light and power and rebirth. Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an amazingly strong person. You survive, even flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear failure. You know that any mistake you make will teach you more about yourself and allow you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater being. Because of this, you rarely make the same mistake twice, and are not among the most forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion, and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality and know that life is tough and the world is cruel, and it takes strength and independence to survive it. And independence is your strongest point - you may care for others, and even depend on them...but when it comes right down to it, the only one you need is yourself. Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your wings to guide you.You are eternal and because you have a strong sense of who and what you are, no one can control your heart or mind, or even really influence your thinking. A symbol of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very spiritual person with a serious mind - never acting immature and harboring a superior disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's stupidity and tendency to want others to solve their problems for them frustrates you endlessly. Though you can be stubborn, outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.
"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He emerged from his own ashes, to be forever immortal."
Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl (Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum (Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life, the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.
As a member of Form 0, you are a determined individual. You tend to keep your sense of optomism, even through tough times and have a positive outlook on most situations. You have a way of looking at going through life as a journey that you can constantly learn from. Phoenixes are the best friends to have because they cheer people up easily.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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[ETA: And my mail program decided comment-notifications to this entry are spam. Because they include 'The F-word' and 'penis' - I wonder if I can write an entry about nothing but my day at uni with the same results? Not any loger, as LJ is now on my whitelist, but theoretically it should be possible.]
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But then I started seeing the comments, and I realized that there was no way I would like it if the intent of the first scene was carried through to the end.
The author's promise of a sequel is the only thing that's keeping that bookmark on my list, actually. I'm just too much of a goopy romantic for stories like that.
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I'm only doing a little bit every now and then, but if I'll ever get the Telecom to give me a proper connection I hope to do more.
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Snape, on the other hand, surely did realize, and that's what's keeping me hanging on the sequel. The author did a very good job of building the reader's hope that he wouldn't go through with it -- almost too good since it's now difficult to believe Snape's betrayal. There were a few moments where you just knew he was regretting things, but without the promise of a sequel it would come off as a cheap shock-value ending.
Still, any story that has me still a mess the next day is good in my books. *is a masochist*
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And neither did anyone else at that school, professors included. They all knew - that was why Dumbledore was absent. Remus was possibly the only person who didn't know or suspect, but the rest of them did. (I submit that Draco told McGonagall who told Dumbledore and they let it slide because it was tradition and because no one had done anything for Snape as a student, i.e., there was no precedent to interfere.)
The only sequel that could satisfy me now would have Harry coming back years later and destroying Snape's reputation, kicking AD out of his job, ruining Ron's & Hermione's lives and bankrupting Draco - a real Monte Cristo revenge. There can be no reconciliation between Harry & Snape, because Snape did not do one thing on Harry's behalf.
I shouldn't take up your LJ with this. I won't put this on the comments page at ISF; don't really think that's appropriate. If I knew the author better, even by reputation, I'd probably write her directly, but... she's getting a *ton* of positive feedback. Let her enjoy it.
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These little hints that Snape really cares Through the whol, that he may not go through with it. His learning about Harry Aunt and Uncle,... you know the drill.
Even though I reminded myself the whole time how it would most likely end I just couldn't believe that all this buildup would lead to nothing.
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Snape, on the other hand, surely did realize, and that's what's keeping me hanging on the sequel. The author did a very good job of building the reader's hope that he wouldn't go through with it -- almost too good since it's now difficult to believe Snape's betrayal. There were a few moments where you just knew he was regretting things, but without the promise of a sequel it would come off as a cheap shock-value ending.
I personally don't really hope for a happy end in the sequel - the revenge scenario sounds pretty nice actually - but a *reason*. I want to know why the hell he didn't call it off.
Maybe I shouldn't get my hopes up but then you never know.
I think most of this positive feedback is fueled by the need for an happy ending - at least what I've seen on the lists so far -
As I can't review to save my life, coherence in explaining what worked for me and what didn't was never my strong point, she's in no danger of getting negative feedback from me.
And please, take up my LJ all you want, that's the most of actually fandom related content it's ever seen.
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Oh yes, just for the times today I had to think about this story it earns points in my books. But I'll still need the sequel to say if I like it or not.
And who in this fandom isn't a masochist when it comes to wips?
*holds up her 'I'll do whatever you want for one more chapter' banner*
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I know many on the lists are asking for the sequel because they want romance, but like I said, what I want most of all at the moment is a reason for Snape's behavior.
But that's one of the good things of being on digest - everything is tested before it reaches the mailbox. Makes decisions like this much more simple.
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As for why he didn't call it off - My guess is he just didn't want to. This was his ultimate revenge against Harry, against the Gryffindors, even against Albus - and the Marauders, too. He couldn't have asked for a more perfect - and sanctioned - revenge than making Harry the butt of the Slytherin Caper.
The only moment I thought Snape was having 2nd thoughts was when Harry gave him that birthday present and inscribed 'friend' on it, but I still think Snape just repressed that twinge of guilty conscience.
The only possible romantically happy ending would be for Harry to end up with an OMC, Neville or Remus. There's no way he could ever trust Snape - or anyone associated with that entire situation - again.